I don't want to die. But if I feel as though I have no other choice, what am I supposed to do? I ask for help and it seems like people either don't take me seriously or don't care. Well...how many times do I have to ask until either A.) someone listens or B.) it becomes time for me to just go through with it? How can my fiance just lay in bed and ignore me knowing damn well I spend most of my time on a SUICIDE forum, and probably feel suicidal right now? How does that work out when you love someone? And why, considering the circumstances, shouldn't I just do it?