How much longer can I take?

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by DEADBOY, May 23, 2013.

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  1. DEADBOY

    DEADBOY Member

    It's been a many years now, years spent
    in n out of hospitals. Chronic pain, terrible
    seizures, unable to eat due to stomach
    problem, feeding tubes, ect.
    I've spent so much time in pain, that I have
    forgotten what real life is. I'm so tired. The
    illness is taking its toll. There's not much left
    of what was once me.
    I can't deal with the daily struggle of
    pain beyond my ability to handle.
    The seizures are taking so much out of me.

    The meds only mask the pain. And I'm sick of
    the opiates! The benzio's have little to
    no affect, sleep is random at best.
    My mood is unstable to say the least. Anger
    and anxiety come way to fast and way to
    quickly.

    I doubt that ill deal with this much longer.

    Sadly, there's no Right To Die" in Ca.
    Oregon has some laws, bit there tricky.
    Why is it so wrong for someone who's constantly
    suffering, has no hope of recovery, and Wii
    only get worse, made to suffer?
     
  2. EX1T

    EX1T Member

    I'm sorry you are facing all this... I can't even begin to pretend I understand, so I won't.

    I knew a guy once (before I fell into the void myself) who faced similar struggles as you do, medicated to the point where the pain was manageable but the side effects left him unable to live a meaningful life... Here in the uk people face the same problem with pro choice, as a German national I guess at least I have the opportunity to go home and make use of my right, a glimmer to hold on to.

    I wish I had wise words for you, something to really make a difference but all I can say is I hear what you are saying. Maybe a senior member will have some ideas where you can find support... I hope someone here will give you the right answers.. Until then, maybe knowing that one person has read and taken your view seriously will let you hang in there and give you a little bit of a lifeline.
     
  3. DEADBOY

    DEADBOY Member

    Thank you brother. It's nice to know that people out there are really goid. Thanx again
     
  4. EX1T

    EX1T Member

    Actually... I'm female as if that makes a difference /shrugs

    And you're very welcome as I said I can't even begin to understand, but I can hear and see you
     
  5. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    I've never been in your situation, so I can't say I know what you're going through. I just wanted you to know you're being listened to and heard, and that someone cares.
     
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