It's been a many years now, years spent in n out of hospitals. Chronic pain, terrible seizures, unable to eat due to stomach problem, feeding tubes, ect. I've spent so much time in pain, that I have forgotten what real life is. I'm so tired. The illness is taking its toll. There's not much left of what was once me. I can't deal with the daily struggle of pain beyond my ability to handle. The seizures are taking so much out of me. The meds only mask the pain. And I'm sick of the opiates! The benzio's have little to no affect, sleep is random at best. My mood is unstable to say the least. Anger and anxiety come way to fast and way to quickly. I doubt that ill deal with this much longer. Sadly, there's no Right To Die" in Ca. Oregon has some laws, bit there tricky. Why is it so wrong for someone who's constantly suffering, has no hope of recovery, and Wii only get worse, made to suffer?