But seriously. Because I am in this place where I am feeling nothing and want to feel something and pain would be a nice feeling. So you know... I want to cut. But it's been almost eight weeks, two months, since I last took a blade to my skin. And now I'm just sitting here almost starting an anxiety attack (it's seriously about to come out) because I don't know if that would be considered a relapse or just a normal day of cutting. I just don't know and I hate not knowing things. Which doesn't make anything better. Because I really do hate not knowing things and I keep coming up with things I don't know. Especially when it comes to something that I KNOW helps me calm down... and I just... *Some time later* Wow. Yep. Anxiety attack. Did you see it happen? TL;DR It's been two months since I last cut, if I cut now (I want to) would it be considered a relapse?