How often do you feel suicidal? And I don't necessarily mean the extreme where you actually have a method ready. I don't necessarily mean that extreme, but rather just the thought that you still wish that you could "go" pretty soon. If you reply to this post, you could also include the frequency of times that you actually think about suicide, whether extreme or moderate or mild. Because, after all, I want to cover the whole range, that is, from extreme to "moderate" wishes. In my case, even though I am past middle age already, I generally only seldom think of actual methods, but at least once a week fantasize how wonderful it would be if my doctor told me I have a terminal illness from which I would die within a month. In other words, in my case, it's mild to moderate 99% of the time, which means, I guess, that I'm within the safety zone. So while I don't actively seek out any methods, I at least fantasize about the joy I would feel if I ever get a terminal-type diagnosis from my doctor. So how often do you feel suicidal? And what are the ranges?