I've been thinking about it a lot.
on and off for almost 18 years of my life. (Well, technically 17 years, so far, but 18 as of this upcoming April)
Every time I find myself having a bad day, or a bad couple of days, my thoughts start to drift back to the day I ALMOST committed suicide and the events therein that triggered it.
Lots of times, I have a tendency to think about what has been and I ask myself: "Where would I be now, had things happened differently from the way they have?"
My mind constantly dwells on what has been and all the probable and possible ways things could have been, would have been and (in my personal opinion) what I think should have been.
Starting with the most obvious...
If I took my own life, either yesterday, a week ago, a month ago, or perhaps even years ago, I wouldn't be here right now, posting this, wouldn't I?
on and off for almost 18 years of my life. (Well, technically 17 years, so far, but 18 as of this upcoming April)
Every time I find myself having a bad day, or a bad couple of days, my thoughts start to drift back to the day I ALMOST committed suicide and the events therein that triggered it.
Lots of times, I have a tendency to think about what has been and I ask myself: "Where would I be now, had things happened differently from the way they have?"
My mind constantly dwells on what has been and all the probable and possible ways things could have been, would have been and (in my personal opinion) what I think should have been.
Starting with the most obvious...
If I took my own life, either yesterday, a week ago, a month ago, or perhaps even years ago, I wouldn't be here right now, posting this, wouldn't I?
Sorry you suffered so much
Its 6 years for me and iVe had enough
I also think to myself if i was drowned as a baby none of this would happen