How old were you when you first attempted suicide?

Discussion in 'After Effects' started by Petal, Dec 13, 2012.

  1. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I am just curious as to how old you were when you first attempted suicide? <mod edit-gentlelady> Feel free to post what triggered it.
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  2. JustFirefly

    JustFirefly Well-Known Member

    Three. The trigger was my gender. I didnt want to be a male
  3. Brighid Moon

    Brighid Moon Member & Antiquities Friend

    I'm not sure if it counts, but I was around seven when I began praying "to god" to take me away from everything. My first attempt leaving home was age nine. My first active attempt at killing myself was thirteen, also the age I first successfully left home. I'm forty-seven now.
  4. Ellie Grey

    Ellie Grey Well-Known Member

    Mine was when I was 11 years old.
    I was suicidal for quite a while before then, I'm guessing I had a fascination with stabbing myself since I was around 8 years old.
  5. mackaroni

    mackaroni Well-Known Member

    I was 16 and the final trigger was my parents divorce.

    I had been abused at home (not by my parents) and bullied at school for years so it was building over time
  6. fallingawayfromME

    fallingawayfromME Well-Known Member

    I was 29. At the time my ex wife and I had broken up and that was what triggered it. I was done with life then but I'm still here today.
  7. Pepper

    Pepper Active Member

    16 years old.
  8. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

  9. youRprecious!

    youRprecious! Antiquities Friend

    42 - the first and only (please God) attempt - due to having become involved in something truly awful/horrendous that had blown up in my face uncontrollably from having tried to do the right thing.......(people issues). Cannot be more explicit than that or would be here for a week giving the details. But the learning that has happened since has helped me see the decision to suicide was because of insufficient trust in insufficient truth. Which is why the passage of time and the receiving of grace are wonderful healers :)
  10. Ink-Beast

    Ink-Beast Member

    I was 13 when I attempted.
  11. Midka

    Midka New Member

    I was 13 on my first attempt. I felt as if I was blamed for my parents divorce which pushed me over the edge.
  12. Glittery

    Glittery Member

    i've never attempted suicide, but it's alllllllllllllways on my mind. i'm 19.
  13. Sparky55313

    Sparky55313 Well-Known Member

    I can't be sure. I only know as a kid back in the 60's & 70's I did self harm. It wasn't known then so it wasn't noticed. I had several paper routes then just to be not at home. Got myself a dirt bike and rode it recklesly in hopes I would be noticed and get attention or die trying. I also flirted in gang life and criminal activities.
    My first real suicide attempt was in my mid 20's. The dang truck ran out of gas!
    I tried several "creative" attempts ever since and found the human body is alot more resilient than I had thought.
    I love life today and don't understand why.
  14. LynnD

    LynnD Well-Known Member

    I was 12 years old. It was the bullying that I was experiencing that pushed me to suicide. I have attempted suicide numerous times since then, and was only caught once. Hospitals will not admit me either even when family has taken me. Where I live, people don't give a shit, I once had a cop say to my face that "people like me shouldn't be alive in society." (except he said "people like you" not "people like me").
  15. TommyTwinCams

    TommyTwinCams Member

    I think I was 19. 19 or 20. Hard to believe it's been so long.
  16. 1Lefty

    1Lefty Well-Known Member

    9 in the mid-60s, there wasn't much thought even given to mental health, much less that of children.

    my trigger, being given a responsibility that shouldn't have been mine, failing it in front of others who humiliated me for it
  17. malcolmam

    malcolmam New Member

    The first time was at 19, I cut my wrists, life was difficult, trying to come to terms with oneself (sexuality). The second was at 29, an overdose (5 times a lethal dose), I found it hard to cope with the loss of my partner who died from a heart attack (in front of me), I feel unlucky to have been found and kept alive.
    Now at the age of 41 I still have not come to terms with who I am, I have had enough of having to justify my existence... I have what many would call a good life yet I am feeling like it wont be long before I succeed in removing myself from society...
  18. shounagatsuki

    shounagatsuki Member

    When I was in 2nd year in high school... I was 14-15 years old.
  19. paulhewson

    paulhewson Well-Known Member

    I'm sorry to hear that. Bullies are the worst kind of vermin on earth. People with no courage tearing other people down.
  20. paulhewson

    paulhewson Well-Known Member

    I wouldn't even call this a try, but five years ago I was going through an event with a woman and took a knife to my wrist, just to see how hard it is to cut into a vein. I had quite a few drinks in me at the time, and I managed to actually puncture a vein. Blood jetted out like a squirtgun. I remember laughing a bit because it was so absurd. I stopped it up by tying a sock around my wrist. At this time I also had a gun. Still do. A nice .357 magnum. I had it out, loaded and had a nice letter written out, but I just couldn't do it. I guess I wasn't ready yet. I put in one of my favorite DVDs and drank beer. I worked 12 hours shifts at the time, and had four days off in a row. I pretty much lived on beer the whole time.
    Recent events have brought all those horrible emotions back in a big way, and suicide has become an option again, but it's on the back burner now.