How old were you when you first attempted suicide?

[kopell]

21, although I'd been thinking on it since I was 16. Was in the marines two years, it was the morning before a training exercise. I think it was something to do with stress, I'm really not sure though.

 

[ThePhantomLady]

I was only 9 years old. That fact hurts me so much still.

 

[Danialla]

12, but was thinking about it before that.

 

[emotionsickness]

I've yet to attempt suicide. But I thought I'd post here anyways since I've come pretty close before.

I started having suicidal thoughts when I was 15 or so, but they weren't serious until I was 20/21. I came the closest to going through with it at 24/25. I had just broken up with my boyfriend and also had to move back in with my parents. Both events made me feel like a failure and like I'd never get my life together. So I went through the process of buying a somewhat expensive suicide method, truly believing I would use it soon. I never did of course, but it's hidden away in my closet should I ever choose to do so.

I'm 26 now. I'm not quite as depressed as I was at that time, but I still often feel myself slipping. Sometimes I'll go into my closet and pick up my method, contemplating whether I should use it or not. However, there is always something that holds me back from using it, whether that be guilt as to how it would affect the people around me, or the fear of death itself. At this point I'm not sure I ever will attempt suicide, but I still think of it as a kind of last resort option.

 

[GreySand]

I was 13. I just didn't want to be sent back to boarding school. The greatest regret in my life is not getting right...

 

[AngelofPainandMisery]

***Warning triggers***


I don't know if it counts but I'd say the first time I purposely hurt myself in attempt to "want to die" was when I was three,
The actual attempt(s) were when I was eleven
The second when I was eleven,
I spend a little over a month in a psychiatric facility and a week at an institution. At twelve
I spent four days in the hospital, released to a psychiatric facility for three weeks, then institutionalized for two months and four days. The triggers for those were just dealing with very severe depression, bullying, my parents separation, and other stuff.
On my birthday

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[ToLaughAgainSomeDay]

I was 16. I don't remember a specific trigger, but I know I had a general disgust for my life and felt completely detached from school, friends, and family. A few close calls since then, but that was the only legitimate attempt.

 

[One Great Name]

I am just curious as to how old you were when you first attempted suicide? <mod edit-gentlelady> Feel free to post what triggered it.

I haven't attempted suicide before, the closest I've gotten is <mod edit- methods>. Thinking about how painful it would be, especially if I didn't die, and fearing God would count it as murder when judging me in the next life always brings me away from it. Often, I've not been sure why I considered it, lately there've been multiple reasons, though. I was ten the first time I nearly did it.

 

[Tear]

I think I was 17. I was bullied at high-school, I had no friends, my parents were divorced and argued a lot. I had no hope left.

 

[True-Lee]

This is the first time I am admitting this I was 14, I was going through hell, I never have told anyone, until now! I probably never will mention it again.

 

[Rockclimbinggirl]

I haven't attempted suicide, but I've contemplated different ways.

 

[Amaryllis_xx]

I was 12 years old

 

[Treek]

It was when I was 16. <mod edit - methods>. Nothing was interesting in life. People were boring, school was boring, events were boring. Even staying home, eating and playing video games were boring. I felt like my soul became dull and I didn't had nothing to hold on anymore. Went on by giving it another chance.

 

[sofie]

First time at age 13
Second time at age 22

 

[John2003086]

around 15

 

[Delta2236]

First time 17

 

[bloodredwings00115]

17 years

 

[neko-chan]

24.. i even wrote a suicide note.. i still have it in my journal..

 

[undercoverlover]

i was 13. i was being abused at the time. i had thought about it so much before then, though, but the abuse magnified the feelings so much and it all became unbearable.

 

[Deety]

Last year, so 34.