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19 years old. That was the only real time I tried, even though I've been thinking about it since 12 or 13. I felt trapped in my living situation with my parents, and, this is kind of embarrassing, but part of it was that I was really stressed about an essay for my English composition class and didn't think I would be able to finish it so I felt worthless. (I did such a horrible job that everyone thought I had just self-harmed, not that I had actually tried to kill myself.)
12. But after 3 attempts, I moved into foster care and life got much better. Then I managed to go 39 yrs before my next failed attempts. I guess the law of averages says if I keep trying, sooner or later I will be successful. Hopefully though, I wont be trying again as I am getting help.
Sometime when I was a kid I played with slitting my wrist. (I dunno why -I just remember my mother finding me and took the knife away. That was the total sum of the experience.) Occasionally I try to cut my wrists but the veins are pretty deep. I deal with suicide ideation all the time - that's what landed me in the hospital more than once. I have a fool proof method in the ready but am not at the point. I live alone now so no one will find me.
I was about 12 or 13 the first time I tried but it wasn't close to successful and instead led to me having issues with self harm.
I was actually hospitalized for an almost successful suicide attempt when I was 19. I still have suicidal thoughts every day.
I was 13 years old the first time I acted out on my thoughts-my attempts got more serious as I got older. I remember almost nothing about the first time-I was so empty inside that it felt like an out-of-body experience, like something metaphysical was happening. I only believed that it was real after everyone talked to me about it later-then I knew that it had really happened and I wasn't having some crazy dream.
I tried a few times but it was never ever <mod edit - methods>I think I did some damage to internal organs but nothing serious enough to get me into hospital....i didnt want to be found and I didnt want to get told off and riduculed for trying.....it was just another thing I sucked at and failed in.....I just pushed everything so so far down where noone could reach.....