I'm 47, totally busted, when I mean broke, BROKE. Can't even scrounge up change for a pack of cigs. I can't live like this anymore. I'm in a totally crap relationship. I hate it that I'm sponging off my girlfriend. I'm totally useless. Tired of looking for a job. I have absolutely NO ONE to call, no family members that care. Never tried the EASY way out but it's inevitable. I'm in a crap mood right now but rather go out with a smile on my face. I've done everything and more that I ever dreamed of. So what's stopping me, I have no balls. Used to have them but as you age you lose them. Next week is going to be some fine weather , so a ray of sunshine on my back, birthday suit packed and awy I go.