I was 13, I was going on an overnight camping trip with a local rec group out on and island, so i meet this guy(we will call him Remington) who seems cool and nice but as the night progresses he starts acting weird he says, wouldn't it be funny to pull (we will call the third guy john) johns pants later tonight? and also told me about how he had snuck his switchblade along with him on the trip I thought he was joking cuz to be honest, i was naive and all thirteen year olds joke like that. so about an hour later i see him taking these perscription med that quite clearly didnt have his name on it and also said oxycodone. that should have been my first clue in to run or tell an adult. but later he actually went through with the pulling down johns pants, i was schocked but even more shock when he procedeedid to penetrate him,(the adults had padled back to shore to run to a store and grab some buns for dinner and left us alone) i told him to stop but he had told me before about the knife so when he told me to get naked i did out of fear. he proceeded to stop with matt then force me <Mod edit - guidelines> i will never forget when i went to the er after telling my parents that during the rape exam when i overheard the doctor telling my parents <mod edit - guidlines> later during in an investigation, johns testimony was that i was an accomplice albiet a reluctant one but nothing ever came of the investigation and no punishment on anyone. a couple years later i am still affected by those events, i have came out as bi though i dont have a favorite gender to date. i have been intimate with guys and girls but everytime with guys and sometimes girls, i experience a flash back, so far no one can come to terms and help me out with my issue. i am confused, what should i do?