3 weeks ago I planned my day, cleaned, laid it all all out, wrote a contact list and a letter and was ready to die when I had an overwhelming thought of what if I go to a worse place. I got scared about that, not about doing this to my family or friends but whether I would end up in a place like hell. I have finally yesterday seen a therapist and a doctor this morning. Today I started with Zoloft. 25 mg. Immediately I felt strange and have had this feeling all day, like a cloud. A little nausea. I don't feel tired. I am still thinking that I will go one day soon, I almost can't wait....will this go away?