So it has been a while since I last posted on here. Thought i would write an update of where things have been going. So things are back on track with the bf. Well I think they are, things seem to come out of no where when things go belly up. I am still living at my parents and my dad is driving me mad. At least I still have the bf's that I can escape to. I spend a lot of my time here just to escape from their house. He drives me up the wall. I got my uni results from my degree and I got a 2.2. It was what I expected but I was secretly hoping I would get a 2.1 but at least I got a decentish grade. So that is the end of uni now. I was talking to my social worker about it and he said I had done really well considering what had been going on while I was doing my uni stuff. So now I am looking for new work. I am looking for support work for people with learning difficulties and mental health difficulties as I have decided I want to do a nursing course and work in adult mental health. So now I am on Mirtazapine pills 45mg. They are working but I hate the way they increase my appetite and I have put on weight since taking them. So I am not happy with them. I don;t know what to do as they have seemed to work. I have been feeling loads better recently and I am worried that if I come off the pills I will go back to where I was befre. I have made real big achievements as I have not cut or od'd in aboue 6 weeks now. What is freaking me out at the moment though is the smell. After I have been in hospital after an attempt there is this smell I can always smell which follows me around. No one else can smell it I asked my bf if he could. Any way if you look on after effects forum you will see there what I have written about it. Any way I can smell it again now. The past few days it has been there. I have a cold also so can't taste of smell normal things but this is there. It sounds weird but it really scares me. I don't know if it is something to mention to SW I don't know what to do about it really. So it is nice that things seem to be better. What I don't like though is the feeling that I can't quite let myself go with it as I feel it is just a good patch and I will go back to how I was feeling before.