For as long as I can remember, I have had trouble with being alone. It just worries me for some reason. I have been involved with people who were not good for me for this reason. I have had friends backstab me, gossip about me, pretend not to know me when around "cooler" people, borrow things and never return them, take things without asking, or invite me over and just talk on the phone the whole time while ignoring me. I didn't confront this behavior, I let it go on for so long and gradually distanced myself from them. I thought as long as they still treated me kindly sometimes, they must care. Same with relationships more or less. I would have guys try and pressure me into things, saying I would do it if I loved them. I would be called down, told what to wear, how to act, how to live my life. Again, I just take it all in, thinking maybe they knew best for me. But I just can't do that anymore. So how do I find more confidence when mine is essentially near rock bottom? How do I stop attracting people who will just hurt me, and start to feel better about myself? How do I break bad habits I have had for so long? It seems simple but not so for me. I just need to find a starting point and go from there, because this is not working for me.