I have been struggling with depression for most of my life. I've been abused by many different people beginning in my early childhood. I have processed all my memories and issues in therapy so much that I should be able to move on by now. How can I just let it go and "be happy?" Is there such a thing? I am so used to chaos in my life that when it isn't there I get anxious! I am exhausted. I have to be up for work in like 3 hours and I just can't take it anymore.