Hello! I'm not that active on posting stuff in this forum, but I visit this forum everyday to read and to chat. I usually make videos on YouTube to get rid of my sadness and my boredom. My first post is about me facing a difficult times when a girl who is my best friend, now doesn't want to talk to me anymore because I confessed that I really love her. After that long post about me tried to confess to her, I realize something unusual from me. After that tragedy, I couldn't sleep for 3 days and didn't eat anything. I lost 4 kg, and I stopped working out because I felt my heart being ripped apart. I felt like "there's definitely something wrong with me", so I wanna share something with you guys:
I always feel hated... by everyone, including my best friends, my parents, all of them, even you guys. I always feel like they are FORCED to talk to me. I always feel like they always talk about bad stuff behind me, insulting me when I'm not around, and pretending to be my friend in front of me. I feel like I have 2 sides in my mind, one (A) is saying "everyone hates me, I should kill myself", and the other one (B) is saying "I did the right thing!". And the bad news is... I can't figure it out which one is right. Every time I follow the (B) side, the (A) side is always asking the same question, "do I have any proof that everyone doesn't hate me?".
More bad news, I can't answer that. I can't prove that everyone doesn't hate me. Every time the (A) side asks that same question, I can't do anything, I can't answer it, and I can't prove it, so I conclude that everyone hates me.
I wanna ask you guys a very important question to help my (B) side, how do I know if someone hates me or not? How do I prove it?
Thank you in advanced for reading my post, I love you guys! Sorry for my bad English, I am not a native speaker. Have a great day!:smug:
I always feel hated... by everyone, including my best friends, my parents, all of them, even you guys. I always feel like they are FORCED to talk to me. I always feel like they always talk about bad stuff behind me, insulting me when I'm not around, and pretending to be my friend in front of me. I feel like I have 2 sides in my mind, one (A) is saying "everyone hates me, I should kill myself", and the other one (B) is saying "I did the right thing!". And the bad news is... I can't figure it out which one is right. Every time I follow the (B) side, the (A) side is always asking the same question, "do I have any proof that everyone doesn't hate me?".
More bad news, I can't answer that. I can't prove that everyone doesn't hate me. Every time the (A) side asks that same question, I can't do anything, I can't answer it, and I can't prove it, so I conclude that everyone hates me.
I wanna ask you guys a very important question to help my (B) side, how do I know if someone hates me or not? How do I prove it?
Thank you in advanced for reading my post, I love you guys! Sorry for my bad English, I am not a native speaker. Have a great day!:smug:
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