I'm a closet shut in with very severe social anxiety. In the past I used to relieve my loneliness by talking to people on message boards. Now I can't connect to anyone.. If I post something, I read the replies, and lose interest in my words and theirs. When reading threads, very rarely one will move me to feel something. But if I try to reply it seems impossible. My words are always unfeeling, heavy, and dead. I'm not yet a complete misanthrope... I long for company, for the feeling mutual understanding. But I can't seem to bring myself to care anymore... I find most people so inane and boring, and I find myself dull and repetitive. Most of the time I don't even try, because why bother pouring out your shitty mind to others and being bored by theirs? I probably come off like a total conceited prick in this post, but I'd rather be honest than try and ingratiate myself. These problems consume my existence. If someone has any ideas for a solution other than killing myself, please feel free to share it.