When I was younger my big sister used to abuse me and some of my moms boyfriends would join her. She never believed me so I stoped talking about it. Now I am terrified of my sister and my moms current boyfriend has beat me. I try to get out but she won't let me. I'm so terrified that its never going to get better. I just want to run away but I can't until the weather gets better. I don't know if I can keep this up till spring. I have tried commiting suiside. I cut upto 5 times a week. My family hates me and I can't take it anymore.