I cant... it just pisses the hell out of me.
So i have a friend, and shes a great person and all... but she is such a downer... all she does is sighs a lot, says that life sucks, that people are stupid, and everyone should die, and she wants to die, and everything is ugly, and the weather is always bad, and everyone is always wrong, and being positive is dumb, and people are always annoying, and everyone is out to get her.
...i cant T_T like, i am okay to listen, to be there... but when you have to listen to this bullshit every day... while fighting suicidal thoughts and delusions yourself, it gets tough. I dont want to die, i want to get better, i want to heal. I want to love.
But the first thing in the morning i have to listen to her complain about how things are horrible. Its been years. Im not talking about few times. Its been... years. And she takes no advice, no encouragment, nothing. Im afraid i might lash out one day, and then im gonna be the bad guy.
I'll get over it, but... what to do? I dont know anymore. Maybe I should stop talking to her.. i mean she hasn't done anything bad.
So i have a friend, and shes a great person and all... but she is such a downer... all she does is sighs a lot, says that life sucks, that people are stupid, and everyone should die, and she wants to die, and everything is ugly, and the weather is always bad, and everyone is always wrong, and being positive is dumb, and people are always annoying, and everyone is out to get her.
...i cant T_T like, i am okay to listen, to be there... but when you have to listen to this bullshit every day... while fighting suicidal thoughts and delusions yourself, it gets tough. I dont want to die, i want to get better, i want to heal. I want to love.
But the first thing in the morning i have to listen to her complain about how things are horrible. Its been years. Im not talking about few times. Its been... years. And she takes no advice, no encouragment, nothing. Im afraid i might lash out one day, and then im gonna be the bad guy.
I'll get over it, but... what to do? I dont know anymore. Maybe I should stop talking to her.. i mean she hasn't done anything bad.