Hey guys I have had chronic depression since I was 7 years old and I really need some helpful tips, advice and feedback on how to deal with chronic depression. I have come to accept my terms the way they are but this long term depression is really having a bad effect on my health and really killing me. Its like a long term poison or curse placed on to me by others. I always feel tired, drained and completely put down. I am unable to do the things that I want to do because of this depression and it gets in the way of any thing which I want to do. I just don't know what to do anymore, I have tried exercising but after exercising I seem to always feel worst about myself and resort to masturbation and alcohol to make my self feel better. After I drink the alcohol or masturbate I cry alot about how sad and miserable my life is and how I do not have the strength to fight this depression and ask why god why do I have to have this long term depression and never feel well. I happen to also have have low self esteem and self confidence because of this depression. I take a shower since I find hot water helpful, twice a day but that doesn't seem to be helping me and only has a temporary effect. I am a boy in his 20's and want some help or anything to stop this chronic depression and help me take control of my life for the first time ever.