I thought planning to kill myself next year would calm me down but it didn't (not even with a no-suicide contract). Going to therapy calms me down, but in the weekends it gets really bad. My stomach hurts and often when I eat, drink or smoke I get the feeling I need to vomit, all from the stress. Nothing I do can distract me from the stress. Music, family, reading, walking, smoking, trying to sleep... Friday I cut myself a little for the first time and it helped a bit (not that it made me feel good). Saturday I tried it again but it hurt too much despite making smaller cuts, so I'm not inclined to try it again. The only other thing I could think of is to get really drunk and take a walk along the river. But I have a weak stomach. And not enough energy to go to the supermarket or nightshop. I don't know what to do anymore. What do you do to relieve stress? Are there medications for it? Please help.