I have the means to make myself look respectable and even pretty even while over weight. Example: I just went to the shop to get dinner, I was wearing very casual clothes and had my long blonde hair up in a bun. I bought a wand last week (curling tongs) and have not even opened the box. My mood is down so I just throw on a tracksuit pants and jacket. I have mountains of make up I could put on and all the time in the world, I have long blonde hair, i could do many things with it, have hair straighteners, pretty clothes. I don't want to be worse than casual any more, I want to make an effort and look good. Where in gods name do I find the motivation?