i've been cutting for a year now but i don't do it regurally. it's more like once-a-month -thing. nowdays i've managed to cut myself even less, but there's always something else, hot stearin from burning candles, a slight overdoses of painkillers sometimes with alcohol. there are times when i cover mental pain with physical because it's too much for me. my problem is that anything negative can be the trigger: a sad memory, a little joke from my brother, anything. i don't know why those things affect me so much more, why can't i remember the happy moments? when i'm alone, it's always the sad things which appear to my mind. i just want to forget all those things.