I read so much about trying to get help but am at a complete loss as to how to achieve this. I went to my GP for depression 5 years ago because I felt really bad that things were going out of control and I was very upset. From my perspective they treated me like depression was as illness and that if I were not depressed then I would somehow be able to solve my problems. Yes the antidepressants did make me feel better for a time - but the underlying problems remained and now after 5 years of trying stupid things and getting nowhere now I feeling I am in a terrible nightmare with no way out. There is a huge rift here - I agree some people can be helped by antidepressants and find a way forward in their lives. Sadly I do not think they recognize that others have severe problems that are going to be challenging to solve. This category of person is just passed from pillar to post and eventually their mental state collapses all together. I will give a sort of example. I had one proper friend in my life who develop schizophrenia in his 20s. Early on in the 'illness' he managed to get a job as a waiter at Little Chef (if you remember those). He stuck it out for 3 months and was just beginning to make friends their. But the work was 10 miles away and he only had a bicycle (there was no public transport) so he gave it up. After that he went from bad to worse - became obsessed with jumping out of windows from high places and 18 years later broke his neck. He was from a well to do background and they thought this job was of no importance. But actually it was the high point of his life and just maybe if he'd had more support at the time - perhaps his parents could have bought him a moped - just maybe the course of his life could have run a different course. I know I am losing touch with the real world - and suspect there is no way back - so am really thinking its time to end my suffering. I see getting help as people preventing the 'crisis' and stopping you harming yourself. But then they just leave you in the shit so almost certainly you end up in the same situation. There seems to be an obsession in making people do things for themselves - sadly it was quite evident that Edward (my friend) was the kind of person who was never really going to be able to cope with life - but that did not mean that with support there was not a meaningful role for him in the world.