The only thing that keeps me from dying is I don't want the people I leave behind to think I don't care about them. That is not the case.I can't deal with the pain anymore psychological and physical. I am a burden to everyone I know. I am have no job , no car, no money. 2 months in a row had eviction notices but got bailed out . I am a complete burden. I think My kids are better off without me. Most of the time I am irritable and moody, I get no pleasure from anything. The 2 year suicide clause ended on my life insurance policy many years ago. Buying Life insurance was the only thing I ever got right. With a quarter million dollars they will have a more secure future and a crazy moody mother out of their lives so they can maybe have some chance of growing up normal and financially secure. I don't know what to put in the note. I don't want them to think that I abandoned them but the truth is it will be better for everyone if I am gone.What is the least painful way to do this and I don't mean physically pain. I mean what considerations must one prepare to make it less painful for family members. Of course I would do it where no one I know who finds me knows me, hopefully prefer to die in a hospital where they see people die all the time. What about the suicide note.??