Hi, I've been struggling for a past few days because I remembered something that I shouldn't. I have a bad habit, I have stupidly high expectation, and often those expectations ruin my life within seconds. Optimism is great, but being a too optimist person is probably the worst thing ever. It's like every seconds of my life never fits my expectation, and it's making me feel bad about myself. I kinda lost trust for myself, because I really don't want to listen to my inner voice again, I don't want to expect... anything from anyone. High expectation is like a deadly drug for me... it is making happy at a short period of time, but for a long period of time, it's going to kill me. I don't have a perfect life, and I realize that, but it seems my optimism doesn't want to do that. I always imagine perfect scenarios in my head and of course... it will never happen. At the moment I realized that, my heart felt horrible. I don't wanna die, I still wanna live in this world. Thank you. Have a great day!