I am a father, thats why im still here, simple really.
I have no thoughts on suicide anymore but the very thought of one of my children wanting to leave me and this world fills me with anguish.
I would feel a failure, to them and myself.
Its easy to find reasons not to go on, but its not easy to justify them to others.
The reason?..............................LOVE.......................This is the most powerful emotion that exists, you can't turn it on and off like a tap. Your Mum loves you and its clear you do her............or you would not be posting this.
Talk to your Mum, let it out and get hug too, hugs are the best thing ever, free, warm and safe.
Don't leave your mum in a living bereavement.............for the rest of her life.
This isn't about guilt trips its about Love.