I'm going to explain my life to everyone, IDC anymore. Got 2 great jobs, work over 40 hours a week, ones an IT job and the other is retail sales with a heavy influence on commission drive a nice car, have the best cat in the world, both mom and dad love me, have close friends but sadly I just smoke weed and spice with them. Mostly spice because I'm in the Military. I don't want to be apart of it. Only reason I completed it is because if you quit while your in training, they treat's you like your a worthless pathetic piece of shit. I hate every god damn thing about it. I have to show up this Saturday for Drill. I'm in Reserves. I have gone through severe depression at the age from 17 to 20. Tried Suicide a few times. Got very very close and anti depressants did nothing to help me. ECT is what changed me, but I'm now feeling like I'm right back where I started. Main reason 23 virgin..... who else on here deals with something similar.. please need advice ASAP!