@nameip. Yes, I apologized and stuff. I wanted to ask her to give me another chance and things, but she always stops emailing me for an extended period of time. She claims to be busy. It's just too much. I am trying to reach out to others, but it's very difficult. One friend isn't around all the time, and another is a best friend of this person, so it's just awkward. I feel like the longer I have to wait for her to respond, the more I will dwell on it. I know I caused this mess but this isn't fair. The thing is, I promised myself I wouldn't make the same mistake after ANOTHER friendship ended and I keep messing up.
@me, myself and i - I wish she would tell me she needs space. I'd gladly give her some, but I have no way of distracting myself. It'd be easier if I had a job and was away from the house, but I don't even have money to take the bus anymore. I don't think I will ever forgive myself.