When I say "how to not feel like total crap" I really mean how to fake it.. how do I let the world think I'm ok? My parents have been bothering me the last couple of days because I've been so isolative. It's funny because they think now I'm depressed when I've really been depressed for the last 7 years.. anyways I just want to look like okay to the world. In fact it would be great if I could just look like nothing, I'd love to be invisible and just do my own thing until it's my time.. if I was invisible everything would be so much easier.. even though I do feel invisible a lot of times... I want to be invisible all the time so I don't have to fake smile or come up with some excuse at work as to why I'm not so preppy today... if they only knew the real me... but they never will... how do you guys do it? How do you make everyone think you're okay when you're really not?
Maybe I can learn to do it so well that I can actually pretend to be okay just to escape my pain for a little. Maybe I can come up with something to tell myself that will convince me that things will get better (even tho I know they never will) just to get me through the day.. until I'm back where I'm most comfortable which is alone in my pitch black bedroom at night with the covers over my head...
Maybe I can learn to do it so well that I can actually pretend to be okay just to escape my pain for a little. Maybe I can come up with something to tell myself that will convince me that things will get better (even tho I know they never will) just to get me through the day.. until I'm back where I'm most comfortable which is alone in my pitch black bedroom at night with the covers over my head...