How do I reach the point of ending my life? I know I don't want to live like this anymore but Im not yet committed to dying. I go to the medicine cabinet daily hoping for the courage . I can't help thinking of others namely my mother who is my whole world and don't want my death to destroy her. If it weren't for her I think I would be dead. If I can detach from her maybe then death will be easier on both of us. My unhappiness hurts everyday. I don't want her or myself to hurt anymore. It is my hope that my death can give life to those who would use it and appreciate it. My life is not for me.