My mother and I don't know why.
I remember being about 14 years old and I would ask for food because I was really hungry (and severely underweight) and she would get very angry at me and I wouldn't get any food. I used to go back to my bedroom and basically have a tantrum to myself.
I also remember seeing the nurse at about the same age. The nurse told my mother I am underweight and my mother replies "no, she's a normal weight" and then the nurse had to confirm that I am underweight.
I was basically being fed no more than 400 calories a day. My entire ribcage was prominently sticking out but still I was not allowed food.
I remember asking for advice on here and somebody suggested that I ask for bigger dinners which I did ask and was given the same size dinner but spaced out on a bigger plate.
A few years ago, I said I was still hungry after my 300 calorie dinner and she madly went off on one at me because "you've already been fed"
If I make my own food, I get filthy looks. Told I'm in the way, so I quit preparing food. Get a lecture on how having more than one meal a day is greedy, having breakfast is greedy etc.
She looks in the bins and if she sees anything in there she gets angry at me. I buy all my own food. I'm severely underweight based on my bmi.
The irony is that she always moans that she doesn't get fed when she has an overweight bmi, eats more than 2000 calories a day and snacks all the time.
But if anyone else eats anything, we're greedy.
I've been struggling with food for 14 years and I feel like nothing is ever going to get better.
I apologise for this being long