Sweety, it is possible that you have depression. Your environment is probably stressful, you could have a predisposition to it since your mom is having troubles, etc.
I think your mom might be reluctant to admit it because it would make her feel badly, as if she were to blame (which of course she isn't - there is no blame for something like this. It happens, it's chemicals in the body getting off track on their trip to where they're supposed to go.).
When you talk to her about it, think about that - about how she might feel and find a nice way to say it that lets her know that you love her and don't blame her. I think that you should see her doctor. Since he's familiar with her, he'll be better at helping you. He'll also know all that you're going through at home, honey.
And I know you know this (gentle wink) but never ever take someone else's meds. They're dangerous and now you see how bad things can get. They could have been worse. Make sure you get the best by getting your own treatment. Look out for yourself.
By the way, in my (and only my) experience, anxiety attacks didn't start that rapidly just from mental issues. They took a long time to build from one attack, to two, to repeats in the day, to frequent ones. Usually if something like that is happening, there should be a reason: something really scary's going on, a medicine, a physical reason. So I'd bet it's the meds. They weren't meant for you, so they're not making your body do what you want them to.
BY the way, remember that what your mom feels is what you'll pick up, as a kid, on how you should be feeling. My mom was bipolar, paranoid, and anxious all my life. Because I didn't know what I'm telling you now (about how we pick up what our mom is feeling) I ended up becoming paranoid and having huge anxiety attacks.
Once I realized that it was because that's what I was exposed to at home 24/7, it helped me to break the cycle. But I had to have someone to talk to. So this is a good place to start.
One more thing: because my mom was panicky and stressed out, she made me feel like I was bad if I didn't worry about the same things she did. So that's how I started to worry. Do you feel the same? Have you ever felt bad, or had her make you feel bad, if you didn't feel the way she does? Like a bad kid? IF she did, she didn't mean to - she's just afraid she's the only one who feels like she does so she was looking for reassurement. But finding out when your feelings of paranoia started, exactly where they started, might help you find out WHY they started.
When I realized exactly when my anxiety attacks started, my super-worry, then I realized I didn't have to worry anymore. Since then, my panic attacks have whittled down from 5-6 times a day to once a day at most, and then managable. I stop and think "ohhhh I'm just falling into my body's old habit" and instantly I can breathe.
Hope this helps some. Talk to us.
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