I don't know what to do in between therapy sessions when I am still haunted by all of this pain. I need someone to help me, and there is no one here, kind of like when it happened. This is why i want to die. It hurts too much, and no one has ever been there to help, we help people when there are fires, or hear t attacks or disasters, but if you rape a child or an adult, no one does anything to help the victim. We just want here to go away, forget it ever happened. I can't forget. And it hurts worse than any kind of pain I have ever known. And, I think it's going to kill me.