Im new here and dont really know exactly how to word this but here it goes. I think I may suffer from deppresion due to the fact my dad has it my twin has it and a lecturer at college and my twin have said they think I do. On top of this I have suicidal thoughts alot I barely sleep and almost constantly feel like at any moment I could just go crazy and lash out at somone which has happened before. However the big issue is simple I have spent almost 7 years trying to isolate my self from family friends and the world. Due to this and many other problems I have extreme confidence issues. Hell I cant even get on a bus because I cant speak to the driver due to said issue but to get to the point how can I ask a doctor if Im suffering from depression if I cant talk to him.