Like ive said befor ive been struggleing a lot with depression. In the past ive attempted and im almost 16 so yeah :/ . But currently i have a boyfriend and i love him so much i just adore him. But also i almost cant control my depression, thoughts, and actions and hace come to a conclusion that im probably not gonna live to 17 or 18.......... I wanna know what kind of pain i might be causing and leaving him with and how long hes gonna feel that way.