Well my closest family (or used-to-be-real family, my cousins) are still not speaking with me, and now we come to another holiday season and I'm starting to feel the sadness sinking in. I'm also overwhelmed because I have to move and am way behind on that. I also don't know where I'm moving to yet, and have only 3 weeks to do so. I'm avoiding imposing on any other friend as everyone has their own lives to deal with, and this depression has already cost me some relationships. But I'm not sure what else to do from here. Anyone here have any thoughts on how to make it through this period. I'm worried because I do have *method* all ready to go, but I really don't want to choose that path. I had been making progress with resolving my situation, or at least coming to terms with it, but took many steps backwards when my cousins kicked my out of their lives, and now I have that much more of a struggle to deal with. In all this time I found that having a friend to speak with, or just knowing that there's some compassion from someone trusted, has been my greatest help and support while I figured things out in my life. Simple things like being able to play with my nephews have kept me going all this time. But that seems to be over with now. I have no where to go for thanksgiving, christmas, or new year's eve. These next two months are going to devastate me, and I have no idea how I'll deal with it. Yes, I'm seeing a doctor, but I've slowed down on that because of cost, and I really wasn't getting answers as fast as I would've liked. Anyone suggestions? ...please. -Yada yada yada.