My parents know. My closest friends know. My teachers know (but not because I told them). Those who are smart enough to look at my pictures and read my profiletext on Facebook and put two and two together might have a clue what has happened. But I have so many friends and good friends who have no idea at all.. I mean, most don't stalk my Facebook-profile, so I understand that it's hard to know without me telling them. But how do I tell them? I can mostly talk about the situation fine, without crying I mean, though sometimes it depends on the person I'm talking to. I hate it when I talk about it like that though, and everybody feels sorry for me. Not a good feeling.. I notice at once that most of my friends are intimidated by it all, and they just try to avoid it. I understand that it is hard. Which also makes it harder for me to tell other people. So I have stopped telling people. I just let them believe that I'm in a bad mood for some other stupid reason. The last person I told, he is a good friend of mine, he got mad at me, and just completely stopped talking to me. I don't really blame him. He talks to me now, it's all good, but what I told him is never ever mentioned. I honestly wish most of them knew. It would be so much easier, I really do not enjoy people thinking I'm cranky all the time just for some stupid reason. I'm really a happy person. I just want them to sort of understand what I am going through, and how hard it really is. So how do I tell people? How would you tell someone that your best friend, and the one you loved more than anything else in the world, jumped in front of a train and killed himself?