I was with my BF for 5 years. I broke up with him twice during those 2 years. and both times we got back together. This time is different, as I have realised that I am gay. The last few weeks I have been fine, I was happy to be free, and to finally be my true self. But this week, it has been so hard. I've been crying, I've just wanted that comforting company from him, to be able to have a hug/cuddle and lie with someone. And the only person I've ever properly done that with is him. How do I not go back out of discomfort. I obviously cannot be in a relationship with him, but I do miss him at the same time. And please dont get me wrong, I do not want to sleep with him, I do not want any of that back. I just want to feel cared for, in person, affection, comfort. How do i move on from this?