How?

How can I die but make it look like it wasn't suicide? I know I can't have the answer to that question but I want people to know that that's where my head is at right now.
Please let me die tonight!

 

I would also like to know the answer to this

 

hey fitzy anything happen to trigger you? thinking of you and sending a big hug. sounds like you need one....

 

We're here for you when you need us. Keep in touch, and we'll try to ease you through these hard times.

 

Thanks for the responses - I'm going through a really rough time right now. SF is the only safe space to talk about the pain as no one else wants to know, which increases the pain and so on..........
I don't know if I'm going to survive - being dead seems so inviting

 

hang in there, i believe in you. i don't remember, but do you have a therapist that you can share with? might not help immediately on these long evenings but i find, for myself, knowing that i can see her each week makes me feel less alone. i tell myself that if i just hang on i will see her soon and we can discuss how bad i'm feeling.

 

Hun if you are worried about making it look like an accident then that means you have people that care about you and you about them. So no matter how you "go" they are going to be hurt. Hold on to that thought hun. And yes please keep posting. This is a safe place. And a place that you dont have to keep explaining yourself. We understand and will help anyway we can to get you through this.