Hi i joined tonight for some guidance and to hear how others perpsectives on depression. I am 30 years old, not bad looking, steady job, boyfriend, great family yet I am so unhappy with my life. I can compare it to feeling of when somebody you know dies and the world carries on, you want to make them stop as they are not feeling the pain you are. On the outside I am cheery and cheeky at work but nobody knows that I was thinking of suicide on the drive into work. I do not see a way out of my misery at the moment.