So im new to this forum... and ive joined just because. Well, i dont have the energy to write all my issues down here. im exhausted, n it doesnt help. im pretty much fucked. im bulimic n i binge purge all day everyday. i live at home with parents n get a measley £91 very fortnight, which lasts 3 days- if i dnt blow it on shit all clothes (then cant afford to go anywer) or food binges... wat a waste! I have no social life at all, i have ONE friend, who has come and gone over past few years thru my troubles, but wen i hit rock bottom, shes always round the corner- to give me a hug. Erm... back to the point... so i dont knw wat im doing theres too much to say not enough time. i feel suicidal right now, have done on and off today- first time in a while. im a mess, and constant;y get reminded of tht everyday frm parents. wen u have low self esteem, the last thing u need is them rubbing salt in the wound. part of me wants to give up, n do it , end it all. but the other part of me wants to beat this n prove ppl wrong. but after having one issue after another over years.. it kinda makes me think- will it ever go away like? will bulimia ever go? will social anxiety ever go? will i ever feel alive again? will i ever be loved? will i ever be free? will i ever be independant? will i ever be able to turn round and hold my head up high? i dont see the point. why am i going on?