So I grew up in a family that never touched, never hugged, never said I love you, never showed affection of any kind. So now I'm a 38 year old adult who needs constant reassurance that I'm valued and loved. That's a lot for most friends... And when I'm this depressed... I need hugs, but can't seem to accept them unless I'm pretty intoxicated. I shy away until then. Except today is that day where I've been drunk all weekend. In bed all day. Barely motivated myself to get out of bed and desperately just need a hug. A held hug, ya know. And I have no idea how to seek that comfort.