I live with this fear that people will try to hurt me verbally or physically. As crazy and "macho" as I act on the outside, I have only fear and anxiety inside. I am terrified of people, but I also hate and envy people. The only times I feel safe is at home and in my classes, reading and writing is my only solace. Evey time I step foot outside...anything goes. I am on the defense, I am sarcastic, and I accept that anything could go wrong so I have to deal with people with little to no emotion or empathy. The minute my guards come down with someone I am totally different, I am sensitive and extremely sympathetic, but my fear (anxiety) gets the best of me. I do have a certain attitude with how the world is right now, but at the end of the day I don't know if it is me or them. Can anyone relate to any of this?