The way I see it. Why I have thoughts and desires to off myself again, is that I'm hungry for life again. Excitement, you know, things to happen. But when things start going downhill for you (Losing your job, girlfriend cheating on you, and facing 30 days in jail for a DUI, best friend back stabbing you) it just... Doesn't seem worth it anymore, does it? Thats the ultimate goal in suicide isn't it? To escape into something that we feel is better than life? All of us have that hunger for life though. We need it but we get to the point where we think that we can't achieve it anymore... Why is that? How can actions of just a few people who shouldn't matter put you in positions like this?