Sorry not enough room in the title for trigger warning but this could well be triggering.
i am so so angry.
And i already had so much anger inside myself towards myself already.
i am angry with me but this morning i am also more ANGRY at THEM.
BVarious reasons.
But this is one that strikes out at me right now.It is the one straw that has just broken the camels back this morning and now i feel maybe all the anger ive held ihn that past few weeks is just aobut to all come out now and now i am scared.
i received a letter or a copy of a letter that was being sent from one professional to a group of others involved in my mental health care this morning.It was 23 pages long though in large print cos i need it that way.
i appreciate having received a copy of the letter and i also do not expect the letter to perceive me in a brilliant light as firstly i am a mental health patient,second my situation is complex and thirdly particuarly regarding the situation with me and my medication that is obviously my fault and also apart from that i know i have many many flaws so thats five reasons at least why i would not expect the letter to portray me in the best light.i could accept that,understand it to some degree.
However the letter was purely and totally insensitive.And i got upset and very very triggered by reading it.i appreciate the copy.ANd i appreciate honesty.ANd can appreciate if it didnt show me too well.But i dont appreciate the total insensitivity and parts of how i was portrayed and perceived in it.And it didnt help that it included my total background information etc which is fair enough if it had to be there but it was meant to be minutes to a meeting not more of all of my detailled personal stuff being shared around [i do appreciate infomation sometimes needs to be shared between professionals - not that even all of it seems factual information but more opinion - but there is such a thing as ways and means and tact and not being so lenggthy and needing a trigger warning of which i had received none].
im sorry.Its probably just me.Maybe no-one else would have a problem reqading something like this.im just sensitive right now and im sure its just me but i cant deal with this or maybe its just brought a lot of my recent anger ive been either consciously or subconsciously trying to hide to the boil.i dont know.
Its just me.i cant cope with this and certainly not this type of thing.Its upsetting.Its just me im srure but some people can be so insensitive sometimes..............
Take care for now
kath
Ps Probably didnt help that my post was sopiping wet and open when i received it this morning so half of Royal Mail have probalby had their entertainment for the day......
i am so so angry.
And i already had so much anger inside myself towards myself already.
i am angry with me but this morning i am also more ANGRY at THEM.
BVarious reasons.
But this is one that strikes out at me right now.It is the one straw that has just broken the camels back this morning and now i feel maybe all the anger ive held ihn that past few weeks is just aobut to all come out now and now i am scared.
i received a letter or a copy of a letter that was being sent from one professional to a group of others involved in my mental health care this morning.It was 23 pages long though in large print cos i need it that way.
i appreciate having received a copy of the letter and i also do not expect the letter to perceive me in a brilliant light as firstly i am a mental health patient,second my situation is complex and thirdly particuarly regarding the situation with me and my medication that is obviously my fault and also apart from that i know i have many many flaws so thats five reasons at least why i would not expect the letter to portray me in the best light.i could accept that,understand it to some degree.
However the letter was purely and totally insensitive.And i got upset and very very triggered by reading it.i appreciate the copy.ANd i appreciate honesty.ANd can appreciate if it didnt show me too well.But i dont appreciate the total insensitivity and parts of how i was portrayed and perceived in it.And it didnt help that it included my total background information etc which is fair enough if it had to be there but it was meant to be minutes to a meeting not more of all of my detailled personal stuff being shared around [i do appreciate infomation sometimes needs to be shared between professionals - not that even all of it seems factual information but more opinion - but there is such a thing as ways and means and tact and not being so lenggthy and needing a trigger warning of which i had received none].
im sorry.Its probably just me.Maybe no-one else would have a problem reqading something like this.im just sensitive right now and im sure its just me but i cant deal with this or maybe its just brought a lot of my recent anger ive been either consciously or subconsciously trying to hide to the boil.i dont know.
Its just me.i cant cope with this and certainly not this type of thing.Its upsetting.Its just me im srure but some people can be so insensitive sometimes..............
Take care for now
kath
Ps Probably didnt help that my post was sopiping wet and open when i received it this morning so half of Royal Mail have probalby had their entertainment for the day......
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