You know, I feel like an idiot. I really meant my last post, but last night, the depression got so bad that even though I KNEW I didn't REALLY want to die, I found myself acting on my suicidal feelings. I managed to stop myself before major damage was done, I hurt my throat (attempted hanging, kind of) and I stupidly risked my life again. I don't know if it was a true (though indecisive) suicide attempt or just a self-injury thingie, but it was stupid. It just goes to show that this disease (depression) has me so mired in its grip. That even when I respolve to live, I still seek to die. IT was really hard to post this after my previous email, but I guess i Still need support. Please help me get through this alive. Thank you.