Don't hold strong opinions about things you don't understand. Sometimes you need to run away just to see who will follow you. It's hard to answer the question "what's wrong" when nothings right. I'm tired of trying, sick of crying, I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying. Sometimes it hurts more to smile in front of everyone, then to cry all alone. I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiled the one who could brighten up your day, even if she couldn't brighten her own. Just when I thought my life was coming together, I realized it was just starting to fall apart. Stop the world I wanna get off. Death is God's way of saying you're fired. Suicide is humans way of saying you can't fire me, I quit. I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any of me left. Everything that ever caused a tear to trickle down my cheek, I run away and hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me. And I don't know what to do. I just know that pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten time more. It's the loneliest feeling in the world - to find yourself standing up when everyone else is sitting down. To have everybody look at you and say "what's the matter with her?" I know what it feels like. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Shutters closed, blinds drawn, doors locked against you. And you aren't sure whether you're walking toward something, or if you're just walking away. I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get though anything, but inside I'm fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering. I know what its like to want to die; how it hurts to smile; how you try to fit in but you can't; how you hurt yourself on the outside; to try to kill the thing that's in the inside.