I have been cutting for the last seven years when I was raped. I have stopped for bits of time but end up going back. Its hard and it leaves scars that I have to explain away. Just the last couple days I ran upon something that although it is not new it is for me. I ran into someone on line here who burns themselves. I was not sure how I could pull that off but soon found it is easier, less mess, can hide better and gives me quicker pain that seems to satisfy the need to punish myself for the assult that I appear to be seeking. Please understand I do not condone this or any self harm for anyone. I am just expressing what I am going through and how the pain I am in continues to seek methods of dealing with my warped mind. The problem is not changing, only the way I face it is so I am not getting better and never will.