so a couple months back i posted about losing a friend to suicide. he was the lead singer of a band that i produced an album for a couple of years ago. his death hit our music community extremely hard. it's just been the last couple weeks that i began feeling somewhat normal again. last night the bass player for that same band killed himself in the exact same way in the same building. i'm just numb. and angry. and feel selfish for not trying to reach out to him more. he's always been hard to take. drugs and alcohol had left him in a weird place. if you caught him sober it was great. if you caught him using, it was fucked up. i just haven't had then energy to reach out and help him. i had my hands full trying to keep myself and the drummer sane. what a shitty year this is turning out to be. fuck 2011.