I feel like a really bad person for wanting to hurt the people who have hurt me. They have put me through so much pain over recent years. I wish they were the ones suffering. Obviously this isn't a physical thing (I can't imagine myself throwing a punch! lol) but emotional. Lately I just want to put them down with words, let them know what I think. I'm keeping a members diary on this site and when I'm dead I've left instructions for it to be read by certain people. I'll be hurting them from the grave. Is this really so wrong? It feels wrong...but it helps me to cope.